I realize that I have been stifling my own natural energy for most of my life. Usually it’s with food, and for the last decade, it has also been with chocolate. I enjoy the high I get from it – I feel strongly connected to love and quite blissful. I eat the kind with the least amount of sugar and the highest percentage of cocoa. I once tried baking chocolate, but found it way too bitter. Scharffen Berger 82% dark chocolate is my favorite…or their mocha version, but then I really get soaring.
I can handle the high I get from chocolate because it is less intense than my own natural energy. And, after all these years, the chocolate-energy is an energy I am familiar and comfortable with. Whereas I am quite disconnected from my own natural energy. As soon as I feel it coming on, I turn to chocolate…or food, to minimize its effect.
Today, I am making a commitment to myself to be with my own natural energy for one month. From today until August 7th, I will abstain from chocolate and using food to stifle my natural energy. I commit to noticing and sitting with myself during these days, discovering the gifts that my natural energy brings me.
During this time, I will chronicle my journey each day in this blog in hopes to discover the blessings that this entire journey affords me.