It’s just after 11pm and I’m very tired…but I have committed to writing everyday of my experiences, so here I am :)
What I noticed today is that my energy has peaks and valleys. This afternoon I got pretty tired. When I checked in with my body, I realized that I hadn’t eaten lunch. So I bought a sandwich…ate it…and within an hour was nicely revived.
This evening, as I was watering the outside plants (being much more present this time, I’m pleased to say), I noticed that my energy, again, was low. Understandable after a long day away from home.
That’s when it dawned on me that I am not used to these peaks and valleys. With chocolate, I would partake at the first sign of a valley…keeping my energy at a constant peak. I still have that knee-jerk reaction at the onset of a valley. It’s interesting how many little times during the day the thought to have chocolate comes up. Now I know that when that happens that I’m in a little valley. The thought comes to me during these times to have something to eat…like a piece of fruit. But I dismiss that thought because I would be substituting one “drug” for another and I don’t’ want to do that. Then I think, “Oh, I could take a brisk walk around the block. That would boost my energy.” But I think it’s the same old game…artificially boosting my energy. I think the best thing to do is to ride the waves of energy and just learn to flow with it all. I really want to see what it’s like with my own natural energy and my natural rhythms.
Natural energy rhythms…a new concept. I will witness this over the next several days and see how it all plays out.